Significant+Moments


 * //"It was a catch-22: If you didn't put the trauma behind you, you couldn't move on. But if you did put the truama behind you, you willingly gave up your claim to the person you were before it happened."// (Page 184) ** --- My whole family was in this situation. We all wanted to move on, but we didn't want to lose the people we used to be. I knew that I was no longer the little girl I used to be. No matter how much I wished to be her. My mother was no longer the woman she was before. She cheated, left us but has returned. My father was closest to me. He was like my best friend and thought he knew everything about me. But now he knows that I was keeping things from him, and I lost some of his trust. We all wish that we could forget about the past, but the truth is if we erase the past, parts of us would be erased too.

**//"Martia [said], 'She lied to you about going to her friend's house for a quiet sleepover...about the cuts on her wrists... What else is Trixie lying about?'"// (Page 192) //"[I] swallowed, 'I didn't mean to lie.'"// (Page 193)** //---// During a meeting with Marita Soorenstad, a counselor, many of the lies that I told were starting to be used against me. This was the first time that my parents had heard about them and they were shocked. Due to those lies, they figured that I was lying in other instances too. My father, who used to believe every word out of my mouth, was no longer as trusting. He was hesitant with believing my story, not sure if I was lying again. My mother was shocked more than my father, since it was her first time hearing the lies. I was just as secretive as she was, and she realized that. That's when she suddenly changed herself. She was no longer secretive but rather more open and supportive.


 * //"'You didn't need to cover for Trixie,' [my mother] said. 'I don't think either one of us was about to let her get sent to jail,' [my father replied]. 'She won't be,' [my mother] said//. (Page 382) ** //---// At this time, my father was visiting my mother at her holding cell. Both Dad and Mom had admitted to the crime but for different reasons. Dad said that he killed Jason because he felt "when you [love] someone, you did whatever you thought was in [their] best interests..." (Page 377 ) He loved me so much that he was willing to take the blame for something he didn't do. He had no second thoughts; he wasn't going to let me go to jail. Mom, on the other hand, admitted to the crime because she did it. She was being truthful and hoped that others would understand that "you'd do whatever it took to protect your child." (Page 376) All she wanted was for me to be safe and make sure I wouldn't be hurt again.